the list.

I finally started putting my list on paper last night. yes, THE list. my primary motivation? I realized that I'm not sure what my number is, and that scares me a little. if I don't keep tabs now, soon I won't know if I'm in the teens or in the 50s. and of course the nerd in me sort of wants to run analytics, like how many different races I've slept with or what my average height partner was, and how many new guys I average in a year - you know, the usual.  

with my terrible memory, I knew it would be a challenge - but it turned out to be so much harder than I expected.

for example, in my list:

• I had to group the men in 2009-2010 because I couldn't remember where they fell on the timeline. The mid 20s were all a blur, and I didn't have the foresight to blog about them 
• I have line items that say: "Jonathan (blue eyes)"; "Cop"; and "Daniel (Asian)" because that's as much as I'll ever remember about them
• I scrolled through several years of text messages to recover names and reread many of my posts in this blog to piece together the slightly-more-significant suitors
• And of course, there is still one name missing between 2009-2011. I know this because when I started dating breve, I knew what my number was, and the math doesn't add up. 

yea, not an easy exercise. my advice: write it all down before you forget. because damn, that "+1" unknown on my list is gonna bother me forever.